lots and lots of short bursts of dream, ending with paralysis, spring ‘20

In the last one, I am in church, there’s an old RnB song playing, Drake or something not actually that old. i don’t realize until well into a conversation i was having with dominique that the pews seem to be sitting on a platform shifting forward and backward. they are wooden with cushioning like my grandmother’s old church.

Before i even speak to domonique i see her a row or two behind me. I’m startled for a moment, because a girl near her looks exactly like her, just slightly off, but slightly prettier to me. This makes me think of a dream I recently had, or a premonition, so i want to relay it to her, to relay that i was just being silly, that i was just excited about a dream being based entirely on reality.

When she arrives just one row behind me, ready to listen, i look back at her twin, and her face has changed, it is a much younger girl, i tell dominique “nevermind,  I spaced”, trying to hide the fact that i had been looking at the girl. Domonique sees and says oh i get it, smiling. I’m unsure if she did in fact get it. I believe there was another family there but I cant remember who.

Moving forward, dominique and I are now still separated by one row but are on the same set of pews, but further down on the right sides.
We’re talking and she mentions she’s uncomfortable with the “child” sitting next to her. It’s around now that i notice the pews on a moving platform. She tries to subtly point to who she is talking about. I see a thick tattooed thigh of someone sitting on the floor, their head down praying or reading. I then notice her chest, with small breasts, is also uncovered. I get excited for a moment, thinking I can help domonique out by having sex with this character, but soon i see the creature’s face, a completely bald, thick skinned, tired, non human head appears honestly (reminds me of when squidward goes crazy from thinking spongebob burned down the krusty krab). The head is too big for the small uncovered chest and torso, the thighs are gigantic compared to the torso and legs like a frog. It’s disgusting and now i, too, am very uncomfortable.
I look over to my right. there is an aisle for walking, and separating us from the last row of pews, each very short, for one or two people, and conjoined with the wall. “We could go over there” i say to dominique as i point to them. I forget her reasoning for saying no.
Soon after, she is sat back in her seat looking at the ground, I look too, the creature is no longer seen. It’s under the pew I’m siting on! I raise my legs and try to subtly suspend them in the air. It’s as if i don’t want the creature to know I don’t want it to touch me. Suspense and then the dream ends.


Right before this dream, i’m in a very weird place, a computer cafe, or restroom, or ticket station. Altogether a room, with people floating in and out. I’m at a desk, a cubby of sorts, trying to watch a move, i believe norbit, because i need DVD player to watch it. (This is me calling back to recent times in real life when i bought a red box movie and forgot id have to find a DVD player.) So anyway im here instead of my room which may be as close as upstairs, watching this movie.I’m very paranoid, many disfigured or strangely dressed people, i assume homeless, are walking around, near, or in and out of the room, and i feel defenseless if they should attack me. I am comforted momentarily by a tall woman who seems to work “there” because of her yellow vest, (this is why i think its near a train station, besides the look of the platform outside the door. By platform i just refer to the vibe or assumption i made in the dream, i did not see any actual tracks).
The second time i see this worker, she passes by my computer, looks at me, then at the movie I’m watching and smiles at the movie. My next thought, though, is worrisome, as when she passed i was playing with my lip or something, and I realize no one around is wearing masks, including myself. I start thinking of how many others used this computer before me and look up to try and find hand sanitizer.  Eventually, i realize how ridiculous it is that I’m here instead of my own home watching a movie. I can’t remember where i walked but within the same room, there is a long sink. I’m on one side of it, i fill my hands with soap while a woman, around my age, starts rapidly pumping soap. I don’t how much, she spills a shit ton on her naked torso and it drips down into her pubic hair. “Fuck” she says as she’s made a mess and she’s standing leaned backward to keep it from going all over the floor. Do you need any help, I offer, but she says no, “you’re of the phallic persuasion” (what the fuck is wrong with me lmao) I get awkward at this point. Across the room is another sink, so I try to pretend that I was doing something other than stare at her (either play on my phone or twirl a box of Kleenex, i forget) and then run over to the other sink.

After this, the sequence with dominique in the pews starts. I can’t remember if there was paralysis between the two sequences.